Suicidal Tendencies

I see the world it slips so far away
Looking back on yesterday
Leaves me nothing more to say
Terror reigns my world, Lord please tell me why
I'm on my knees, I start to cry
I live my life, that's another lie-Controlled by hatred
It feels good, I'm not proud to say
But I'll just put off my guilt, it can wait another fuckin'
day
I search you out and now you're right within my reach
And now you'll learn a lesson only I can teach
Now I'm chking it, now I'm checking out
Now I start to scream, it's what it's all about, shout it out
Can you swee what it's all about, shout it out
Now you know what I'm all about
So you can chalk up another soul that's lost
Calculate the social cost
You know not what's inside of me
Raging mad insanity
Scrambled brains I got a toasted mind
Look in my heart therein no goodness are you gonna find
I turned my back to all responsibility
I got no place for all your sensitivity
Now I'm checking out, now I'm checking in, now I star to pray
Just another fuckin' sin, why can't I ever win?
Seems like I never win, it's a sin after sin after sin
Why can't I ever win?
Who am I?