A Life Once Lost

I have to choose what I detest
Either dreaming which my mind hates
or action which my awarness loaths
I am confused
I sit alone in silence
To focus on the way I am living
I am losing you
and this place isn't comfortable
I retaliate by not speaking
So I guess I will lose
I am losing you
and this place isn't comfortable
I retaliate by not speaking
So I guess I will lose
Detesting both I choose niether
But since I must on occasion
Either dream or act
I mix the two things together
I sit alone in silence