A Life Once Lost

I cant understand what I do wrong half the time
my judgment is blurred from this last year of defeat
I never once acted like this before I met you
now Im a simplified sensation
Im nothing; a laughingstock to some
Im sorry for my vicious decline into this bedlam you see before your eyes
I adhere to the progress of my helpless desire to live
my innards are freezing inherently, like winter rain
Im over infectious regret
[ A Rush & Siege Lyrics ]