Melanie C

The weight inside me is as heavy as a loaded gun
Exploring the pain I discover it's fun
Makes me understand why you behave the way you do
Inflicting this on myself brings me closer to you
Lay with me your cruel intentions
Cut me deep with your deception
Tenderly without affection
Do you help yourself by hurting me?
No longer shocking how quickly you turn from good to bad
First lesson today start believing the facts
Your condemning me is valid, maybe that's your truth
My question is this, where is the proof?