Spiritualized

Hey, you know that I've been searching deep inside
And I'm not certain I will like the things I find
I don't know that you will understand but I have tried
I don't know just why I need to do the things I do
And I'd love to do these things without them hurting you
I don't know that you will understand but that's the truth
I'd give it up for you but let me finish what I got
I'd love to now but Lord you know it sure does take a lot
I'll always love you, honey but I can't be that I'm not