In Mourning

Red eyes from tears and all the sleepless nights
Touched skin can never be washed clean again
You are burned by the fire of his flame
Trapped in the filth and all the fucking shame
Pushed down by disgust and desire
Numbing the wounds with other wounds
Here I am, you cannot see me
But look me in the eyes when you cry
I don't mind if you hide yourself, I will find
Don't you make me angry this time
You will never disappoint me again
Bite the pillow and make no sound
So Julia, darkness falls again
You leave the light on by the window
Praying to the moon and the stars
That tonight you'll be left alone
Forced into darkness by the fear of failing