En Vogue

Dissed him, now I miss him,but I miss him because I dissed him. but he done me wrong and I'm not that strong to resist him, so I dissed him. Should I have kissed him when I dissed him? Should I have dissed when I really miss him? I don't really know but I'm all and now I miss him, I really miss him.
Now that he's gone out of my life, I don't know rather to laugh or to cry. It cuts like a knife, everytime we say goodbye, I wanna die. He's so deserving, but he's so self serving, he made me so mad I know it;s sad 'cause now I want him so bad. But he lied to me and he knows that that shit ain't gonna fly with me.
HOOK
Weeks go by he doesn't show, I can't breath no more and my heart is aching so. Confuse emotions in every way and if I could have him here then I'd see better days. If he could see what he's done to me. I can't sleep and I can't eat and I'm on my knees, begging the Lord to find my love and send him back 'cause now I realize he was the apple of my eye.