Jedi Mind Tricks

I know that times were hard
I know that you've been feelin' down
If you only knew how I'm feelin'
For you
If I could take your pain
I wish that I could wash it all away
If you only knew how I'm feelin'
Mommy I'm sorry if my first letter made you cry
To be honest with you I don't think that I wanna die
Sometimes I feel like that I'm cancerous in others lives
Thats probably why I drink at night and sleep 'til 4 or 5
It's kinda hard walking through life with my distorted eyes
When I was younger I was stupid and I thought I thrived
I thought a lot about everything I said in the letter
And questioned whether or not if I was dead you'd be better
You think my shorty would be happy if I never met her
It's too late now mommy I could never forget her
Could never forget how she told me to love
Cuz my father and my grandmother is always above
It's glory above you know that daddy taught me to thug
And every time we was with nanny she'd bombard me with hugs (damn)
I miss 'em mommy and it's hard to believe
That I'm grown and I don't understand it - why did they leave?
(Better to die and sleep than never wake and sleep)
(Then linger on and dare to live when your souls life is gone)
You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one who's losin'
You've been runnin' around for so long
You've been hurting yourself too much
You keep messin' around with darkness
You're the one who's losin'
Mommy I think that Ima try to stick around a while
I got a niece and my nephews they need me 'round a while