Recoil

Aquell mata­ em vaig llevar, no recordo on ni tan sols el temps que fa, i tot havia canviat.
Pera? jo no ho sabia, encara, i mes mhagues valgut no saber-ho mai.
El meu mon era petit, pera? suficient, abans.
Deixa  de ser-ho.
La meva vida, un cel particular, nul.la incertesa, dola§a soledat;
mes tard, cau soterrat, previsibilitat malea?da, asfixiant aa?llament.
Mai res no mhavia fet tanta falta.
Ni la sang que per les venes em corre no necessitava amb la mateixa urga?ncia.
Mentre el dolor creixia, de sobte, aquell soroll estrepitos, insuportable.
Cridant, plorant, vaig correr.
Era incapaa§ de sentir els meus crits, de segur esgarrifosos.
De sobte, labisme sobra­ sota els meus peus.
Morir, volia.
Recuperar el meu cau, la meva estimada soledat, els meus llimbs, la meva preuada illa.
I vaig caure.
Queia, sentint-me cada vegada mes prop daquell horror, del meu propi dolor, del mes terrora­fic despertar dels meus sentits, tot just acabat de descobrir.
Ja no recordo quan va ser que vaig despertar aquell fata­dic mata­, aleshores salvador.
No recordo quan fa que estic caient, que caic, veient la fi mes propera cada vegada pera? amb la incertesa de si mai arribara .
Ara el dolor sembla no tenir la­mits.
El dolor i la por son tot el que sento.
Tinc por de caure per sempre.
[English -> TIbo / Black Chrome]
That morning
I woke up
I dont remember where it was
nor either the weather
outside, and it had all changed.
But me I didnt know it yet
and it would have been better if I never knew
My world was small but big enough for me before
It stopped to be that way
My life a certain sky its over
The uncertainty, sweet loneliness.
Later subterrean hole,
cursed anticipation, sweltering isolation.
Never had I felt that much need for something.
Even the blood rushing through my veins
I didnt have that much need of it.
And the pain continued to grow suddenly
this awfull uproar, unbearable.
In tears I was screaming and started to run.
I wasnt able to hear my own screams,
surely terrifying.
Sudenly , the abyss appeared under my feet.
Die, thats what I wanted.
Find again my hole, my sweet loneliness, my limbo,
my precious island. And I felt.
I was falling, feeling closer and closer
to this horror of my own pain
of the more awful awakening of my senses
that I was just discovering .
I dont remember exactly where I woke up
this fateful morning redeeming at this moment.
I dont remember the exact moment
since I fall and I fall
seeing the end coming closer and closer
but in the uncertainty of knowing when it will finally come
Now the pain seems to have no limits.
The pain and fear that is all that I feel.
The fear of falling forever.
[ Vertigen Lyrics ]