Camouflage

You take a deep gulp,
waiting for the fog in your mind
and you know,
that you better change something.
Reality starts to fade,
but it'll last just for a while.
You know that you're falling,
lost again.
You feel that you're falling,
hitting the ground.
Your knees start to shake,
when you think of what you'll do
and there's no return.
They trained everyone,
but the thought about the jump,
leaves cold sweat on your skin.
You know you'll be falling,
once you are off the plane,
you know you'll be falling,
alone.