Zella Mayzell

I want to be anointed
I want to be inspired
I want to hear voices
I want to breathe fire
If I could be a hero
If I could be a saint
I want to rise above this
I want my past erased
I really want to decide to grow up
And stop being a little boy
I want to act in true chivalry
I want to see that it?s a choice
I?m a supporter of all I?m against
Quietly resting in my role
Keep telling myself this
Telling myself this
Will never take a toll
I see you and
I see thrills
One look from you
One look at you and all my good senses are killed (clear my history now)
I?ve misplaced my
Replaced my moral code
Just rip a new one off from a skin mag and I?ll
Do as I am told (clear my history now)
Get up early
To spend the whole day feeling bad
It?s built a stronghold inside of me
Running off gas fumes and greedy intent
Don?t you dare tell me you?re happy now
Being nothing to me can?t feel good
Where do you get your standards from
I like to act like I?m better than
Better than you better than some
But the truth is inside it kills me
To be a part of the ebb and flow
Of something so detrimental
So consequential
It only goes to show
I?m just as weak
As I am dumb
Just take a breath
And take a look at all the girls you?ve stolen from (clear my history now)
And I don?t care
If they don?t know it?s wrong
Ignorance is bliss and I?m happiest with my
Conscience all but gone (clear my history now)
Get up early
To spend the whole day feeling bad
It?s built a stronghold inside of me
Running off gas fumes and greedy intent
Don?t you dare tell me you?re happy now
It?s only natural you?re only gonna give in
give in again
You know it?s not it?s not fatal you know you want to give in
give in again
It?s only natural you?re only gonna give in
give in again
You know it?s not it?s not fatal you know you want to give
give in again
It?s only natural you?re only gonna give in you?re only gonna give in again
You know it?s not it?s not fatal you know you want to give in you know you want to give in again
It?s only natural you?re only gonna give in you?re only gonna give in again
You know it?s not it?s not fatal you know you want to give in you know you want to give in again
My God please take this
I can?t fight it now
Without you
I fall prey
To my own sense of shame
My God take this
My God take this
My God take this
[ Her Feet Go Down To Death Lyrics ]