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Praying for myself, these thoughts I've tried to hide
I have faith in me, I hope this will survive
But it's tearing me apart, I can't hear the words
By which I die, so I must ask again, who will carry me?
I cannot deny, nothing can defend
From the helplessness that's cutting deep inside
And I can't prevent the thought that nothing's real
It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end
The strength I need to feel
The pride inside of me
And I fell behind the face
That's staring back at me
The anger and the pain
Of knowing where I am
I have come so far and I cannot return