Stone Sour

Is this wrong of me? Ive come so far, so fast
Im in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!
Ive consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean before my eyes!
And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within
Visions plague my dreams - oh god, what beast did this?
I couldnt have oh jesus, I just dont know
Whats inside - of me?