Refused

I wish that i, i wish that i
i wish that i, could pick myself up
trapped, imprisoned i know no other way to be
no matter how hard i try I'm never gonna be really free
surrounded by lies, try to hold my integrity
searching for a higher goal, trying to find the real me
I wish that i-could change my values and ignore this hate inside
I wish that i-could put the pieces back and make another try