Oxymoron

Suddenly the things ain't what they used to be
Now everything's changed and I wonder why
Too scared to face the possibilities
My life's so different I wanna close my eyes
Can't get rid of the gnawing fear inside me
Denying it all is just the real insanity
[chorus:]
I try to run, I try to flee
...but you can't run from reality
I try to run, to run away
...no use to call 999
It's been my self-protection but now I've got the prove
So far I've been to blind to accept the fucking truth