New Order

Here I am in a house full of doors but no exits
In a light that is grey like the stain on my windows
All of this is a gift, such a painful companion
Inside of me
It's just something I know, the answer's not there
It comes and it goes and it frightens me
It's just something I know, the answer's not there
It comes and it goes and it frightens me
This feeling inside me can't confront the decay
To fall down on my knees and resume this charade