Mirror Of Deception

Autumn taking in
But I know that's not the cause
Halting reclusion drags me down
This life hesitates to be enjoyed
Not the slightest prospect of change
Vicious circle
That I'd thought to have escaped
A lasting state of worry prolongs
Another mirthless year goes by
Another hopeless day
In another mirthless life
Regarding life's blithenesses
Like unattainable jewels in the display
Full of yearning
Yet aware they can't be mine
Grievously sensible
That sudden griping feel
All activates irrelevant
An existence most fatally reduced
Conversant becomes that state of mind
Forming my personality
The longly missed pass of being spared
Falls into oblivion