Mad Caddies

that's me staring out my window
different man than i was before
i was scared with no hesitation
kept me running for the door
when i spoke
well my words fell away yeah
into something that i can't deny
i was confronted by a nasty reputation ???
a never ending circle washed me up to see the lie
in my mind that was ever so elusive
hidden deep beneath a plastic shine
i had to wonder if i'd ever really figure out
what it was i was trying to find