Lucky Boys Confusion

I'm addicted to the city lights, I guess you're right
But something changed tonight
I made it through with spontaneity
But this monotony is killing me
It's 2 am man the house is cold, I'm feeling old
Looking back at how time's rolled
I know somewhere stars fill up the night, that must be such a sight
It'd make me whole again inside
I'm getting closer, closer the farther I drive away
I'm getting colder, colder the longer I stay
Don't know how much time I got to spend right here
I've been avoiding but it's time to face my fear, right here
Looks like this episode should end
And I'll miss my friends
I'm distracted by this ambient night, memories bite
Sitting where the rain and pavement fight
I never meant to make the onion cry, but I got to see the tide
To make me whole again inside
I'm getting closer, closer the farther I drive away