Kill Your Idols

A friend of mine once said to me
Don't ever hurry
He said that life is long
That I didn't need to worry
He said that even when you think
someone is gone it doesn't
mean that they have completely
moved on
Even in the slightest bit
they still might care
so all I want to know is
are you still out there?
I wonder if you're doing fine
and if I ever come to mind
Do you long for the past
or search for better times
I haven't learned my lesson
I still would try again
Through the dim light on the porch
I couldn't see it then
It was already over
laying together on your bed
I haven't changed, why did you
what was going through your head?
I should of given up, I shouldn't even try
I've already told myself 1000 lies
It's only me, I'll take the blame
keep it inside to avoid the shame
So thanks again, my special friend
(if that was true, why did it have to end?)
For me it was real, and it's been fun
But now take a look at what I've become