Further Seems Forever

This is worth it's weight in words
to give in now would be absurd.
So keep your retracted retractions to yourself.
This plays upon my sympathies,
I shouldn't have come.
I know I should leave,
but they said,
but they said
I should see this for myself.
And now these sighs are severing.
And I was saving everything,
can't believe,
I believed,
I believed that this might help.