Emilie Autumn

I’ve never tasted tears
Like these before
And though they are the saddest
I have known
Their simple cause is none but
One of joy
For now it seems
I may not be alone
Upon this earth
As I have been ‘til now
A truly unexpected twist of fate
For I had given up
On everyone
Especially myself
And thought it late
Too late
For any soul to cast a line
His hook would hit the ice
And snap in two
But someone blew a kiss
And with his breath
Unfroze
What ne’er a roaring fire could do
An angel now is mine
And from the start
I knew that I was bound to let him in
But while I smile
I weep
Because I know
That something ends
So that this can begin
God, what a fool am I
Or am I wise?
For years have I kept hidden in my heart
The name
Of one who never had been more
But whom I wrote about
And set apart
From other men
Though never did I tell
My feelings, nay
But used him
As a muse
An inspiration
Something to adore
But rarely did I think on what I’d lose
If ever
My affections
Were replaced
By someone living
Breathing
Warm and real
For while I pledged my life
To him in song
The same for me
I knew he did not feel
If I could tell the truth
I’d say I planned
To go on in this fashion
For all time
I didn’t care
He couldn’t care for me
As long as I could own him
In each rhyme
And have someone to think about
Each night
When torment
After torment wracked my soul
To writhe in sorrow
Bathe in pain’s delight
To fill my pages
Was my only goal
Until the day
I dared
To call it love
For this love
Was the only I had known
And somehow
I could keep the rest away
For in my mind
I never was alone
And being thus in love
Though with a specter
I never did expect
Nor wish
Nor care
To take another
In that holy place
Though in my mind
I knew no one was there
Yay, in my mind
But not so in my soul
I loved
I swear I loved
Else why this pain
When of my will
I opened up the door