Grave Flowers

Tears are falling as I sit here again
The night just has fallen and lonely I am
I need to adjust myself and practise to be alone
My mind is messed up and my head heavy as a stone
I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair
Im searching for some silence and Im searching for some care
Nobody really knows me who I really am
I got so many words unspoken in my head
Do you want to know what I fear
Can you understand my tears
Im easy to bring down
Im everybodys clown
Dont ask me to do things that I dislike
Im already feeling bad and worse I might
Im not much of a rejecter so I got myself to blame
Im weak and wounded and to that you can add lame
I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair
Im searching for some silence and Im searching for some care
Nobody really knows me who I really am
I got so many words unspoken in my head
Do you want to know what I fear
Can you understand my tears
Im easy to bring down
Im everybodys clown
Close my eyes, close my ears, close my mouth
And I wish it all disappear
I can no longer cope with this life
And Im so filled with fear
Can you tell by looking at me
That something is wrong
I have eyes but the things that I see
Wont please my mind
[ Cold Despair Lyrics ]