Drop Dead, Gorgeous

This is a nightmare. You've lost control.
Wake me before you reach the bottom, Of what never ends.
It feels like Summer in the Winter, it's raining all the time.
You fell like snowflakes, in the Summer,
This is everything I wanted.
If it wasn't for you, I'd be happier than ever.
And every time i think of you, I'll close my eyes,
and blacken my heart, and never love again.
Is this a 9mm or is this a ticket home?
And I'll forget you, alone, as I lie underground in peace.