Disharmonic Orchestra

How do I feel? I can't explain
I never knew what's going on
In my mind there's a voice
That's telling me the meaning of life
The heat makes me sick I gotta stay
I check the pain that can't be found
Theres comes the moment that never lasts
I fasten my seatbelts but I don't care
I am the one to blame
I'm like an endless pain
But the truth beyond it says