Descendents

Spent the last years
in denial of my grief
because you hated me
anyone could see
i'll always wonder
what I meant to you
and why you hated me
what i did to you
i can't get anywhere
pretending i don't care
lying to everyone i see
when the only thing i needed was
one more day like yesterday
i'd pick you up, you'd put me down
wish you were still around
for one more day like yesterday
with you
and in the end
we didn't have a thing to say
still those games you play
then you passed away
i'll always wonder
why you had to leave
why you hated me
then laid the blame on me
cold antiseptic stares