Avail

god i feel like hell
for myself and you
and i hate myself
to end absolute
walking still below ceilings
going round and round
nine in the evening now
and i ain't never shared
more than times allowed
without you leading
i could just stay and fight
oh i'd still feel justified
but i don't always do what i intend
my mind stands to fail
with or without much deatail
and for that it's far too late
standing still but not believing
that talking round and round
will a solve everything right now