China Drum

There's a time when I wish there were no words for it
There's a moment when I think it's gone too far
When I couldn't get round to even think of it
I wish I hadn't taken this so far
But you said it
I never wanted to hear it
You knew I couldn't bear it
But still you kept on sharing it
I've got a fortified right to fear it
'Cause I know this time you mean it
If you ever place yourself near me
It's gonna rip my head apart
Cause, it's all I wanna be I realise I'm nowhere near it
It's all I wanna be but I still grab my chance
It's all I wanna see I see the gap but I won't clear it
It's all I wanna take it's in my reach but I can't feel it
It's never gonna be that way
Cause everytime I'll do it my own way
Today I took a look at my possessions
Piled up in a room I didn't know
This morning I woke up with no discretion
I wish you hadn't taken it so far
But I said it
I wanted you to hear it
You took it in your stride
And now you're disappearing
Cause, it's all I wanna be I realise I'm nowhere near it
It's all I wanna be but I still grab my chance
It's all I wanna see I see the gap but I won't clear it
It's all I wanna take it's in my reach but I can't feel it
It's never gonna be the same
It's never gonna be that way
There's nothing I could ever say
'Cause every time I'll do it my own way
I've got a fortified right to fear it
'Cause I know this time I mean it
If I ever place myself near you
It's gonna rip my head apart
Cause, it's all I wanna be I realise I'm nowhere near it
It's all I wanna be but I still grab my chance
It's all I wanna see I see the gap but I won't clear it
It's all I wanna take it's in my reach but I can't feel it
It's never gonna be that way
It's never gonna be the same
You can pin me to the chair and make me stay
But there's nothing I could ever say
To prove to you that it's ok
It doesn't matter what you say
You can pin me to the chair and make me stay
But every time I'll do it my own way