Boy Sets Fire

i said im crazy one more time
pick up the phone and wonder why
so many years of hidden drinks pushed down too far to ever win
locked doors
and hidden ghosts denied myself with every joke
this was not me
this could never be me
remembering so many times so many lies
ran so fast the years passes blind
so much time lost killing five
whatever poison you may drink another list of "no's" persist
antique and out of reach
i lose my life and take it back
crashed this side of happiness
hit the floor or hit and miss
without the strength to follow through
walked right past this life and you
just one more guess just one more chance
just one more life or circumstance
one more call taking a chance on circumstance