Boy Sets Fire

I never thought this could be me.
I guess you never do until it's happening to you.
Like all the fun turns into shame,
and all the "could have been's" rearrange.
So little time so many crimes,
guilt like a chain chokes my will away.
Redemption never seemed so cruel,
and all my gods never seemed so weak.
Wake up, engage,
now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy.
Get up I'm game,
now sick and I'm tame
counting cost with loss.
Where is the hope they gave?
Don't think that I can't hear you laugh.
I used to be a lot like you,
but now I'm only me.
Drink to pills to shots.
Fun turns into shock.
A habit and a pawn.
For every hand goes round,
the pain gets so damned loud.
The hammer hits and I'm down.
Trust no one, hey why should I?
They gave me the poison dressed like life
Cheated, smacked up and diseased
Cry to sleep and fight to eat.
Used to be a pro at this,
now I've broken my own wrist.
Rotten teeth and life unsung,
you'll forget me when I'm gone.