Burnt By The Sun

I picked it up. I held it. I threw it away. I strayed.
By far one of the dumbest things Ive done to myself.
No embracement of the truth, its gone.
Progress unwound. Ideals shut down.
Pin it on me. Take me away.
Im guilty as charged. You can call out.
This is my forceful vice struggling to gain some life.
Sometimes when you live with something for so long you cant break it,
cant put it down, cant walk away.
Beauty in my mind defined by images shot into my mind.
Brain scan. Observe the man I am.
Look at my hands. Im trembling at the mistakes I live.
One day Im awake. The next day Im dead.
This is not real. This I know.
But it calls on me. How does this work?
Its so fucking twisted. It takes me away.
It sweeps me off my feet. I know how this goes.
Ive dealt with this before. Day one, liquify my life.
Take my insides out. Hang them on a wall.
The beauty. Self-security works itself into a hole.
But I can feel the cold from here.
And I know its cold.
Blisters ravaged my life.
The life that I claimed back.
Turned it around.
[ Famke Lyrics ]