Unter Null

I know you despise me
But what can I do?
You once said you loved me
I took it as truth
I know you'd destroy me
With your very first hit
But it's already done
I'm too scared to admit
The mindgames are timeless
The angish won't end
I've tried to repair the things that won't mend
The heartbreak is caustic
The rancour lays deep
I thought I would fight the battle so steep