Tired Pony

I've been terrified since you walked out the door
And these were not the lies I told you once before
This is not the end, it's still an outside but
I'm not taking off my wedding ring just yet
In its years since I took stock of it
Seems that it's become too much
This is everything I ever wrote
Collapsed into the core
I've been terrified for far too fucking long
What is that thing I lack that makes you so damn strong?
Your letter in my hands is rolled into a ball
With drunken comedy, it's thrown hard at the wall
In its years since I took stock of it
Seems that it's become too much
This is everything I ever wrote
Collapsed into the core
The stitches are unraveling
And the seams have all but burst
Maybe all my years of traveling
Have quenched of what I've thirsted
These years have flown by
These hands have shaken
I have no notion
Of what happens next
There's a kind of feeling
And I think of it
Then the panic quickens
There is no sorrow