Silent Civilian

How can I forget
The things that I, I still regret
I'm wasted
Digest this bitter pill
I close my eyes
Cold sweat's I feel the chill
Inside
I descent into the abyss of a sin
Recall decisions that I made wthin
This sense of guilt building up deep inside
Respect of the main I once knew slowly dies
Confined to sleepless nights
My past will haunt
My constant shadow fights
I fall
As time stands still, memories just stay alive
My head hangs low from the lack of disguise
The weakness slowly dismembers my soul
I can't find exactly where I lost control