Alkaline Trio

I've waited a long time for this life
Just to ruin it, so please don't ruin this for me
Yes to understand this lie
Hell I crossed those t's
I scratched out all these eyes, myself last night
What I promise not to find
So this is what I'm looking like these days
I'm all grown up, so full of hate
But I don't wanna let go of my age
Cause it's the salt, that brings the taste
So where am I to decide that I'm not right?
Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heart strings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day
On my best day
If you stick around
Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
Am I being to careful?
Does this seem right?
Did I open up the shades to expose the sunny rays?
To show what burned there inside