Coalesce

I never considered that I chose to stay numb over tears
I forgot myself to keep momentum
I took a year and stretched it ten fold
But today I live, I live it down
With both eyes just now reawakening
Still soar and sober, still sober for no reason
I have every reason, I can be just as addictive as the next
So take care of me, I am your responsibility
You wanted to change it all so start with an infant
Is this it? Have you given it to me?
Is this the meaning? Have you forced it upon me
Or am I hanging myself needlessly?
Damn your riddles stop speaking in tongues
Let me hear, let me feel it
Across my face if need be
You've given it all still I want even more
Sober expression, numb in motive
Take even more, damn your riddles
They change nothing, I will stand back and take it all in
I am still myself, I'm still intact
Just let me rest, just let me rest, just let me go
Yesterday I was left just like before and again every night after
Now I can accept the common them in unconsciousness
Temptation's only a word now with no potential of a body
No, it's not so hard, I'm the one to leave of an honest will
Confidence can no longer be stolen under the table, me