Coalesce

I've never since felt life as dry as it was inside you
I've tasted plenty and it only made me gag
I wanted more, now I have it all without you
If I could have only left without that thought
I would have left with him and you a childless wreck
I would have taken it upon myself to leave you
Strapped with the burden of unclear thinking
That's what you do best, you're always thinking
And not acting rationally
You just needed someone to love you
God know I don't, I never did so disappear
You gave me every reason to
And still I didn't break your face in
So where's my son and where's your scars?
Do you still limp from my fist fucking fetish?
And my midnight naked messages in your ears?
So why didn't they come? Why wasn't she born?
I would have taken her right from underneath you
She would call you mother, I would call you host
And you would just call on every lie
You could to feel just and sane, keep your word
How little do I really understand?
I knew enough not to touch you there
I should have saved myself for the last but still
I broke in the beginning and broke your hold in the end
And on you went barren and content
And I the other direction experienced in nothing special